I am much better at planning and plotting a thing than I am at actually doing it. Ideas are not strangers to me. Creative thought and resourcefulness is not a thing I have to seek. Stuff is always going on in my head: things I can do, contacts I can make, walks I can take, lots of stuff. The execution of plans and plots seems to be another matter entirely. Even with solid inspiration of friends and of God's word and of observation of what others do ... I sit. It does present the path of least resistance, yes? And of course these delicious ideas and things to be done (I even have the "how" in mind) will come with some resistance. Who wants to risk that? Apparently I am one who does not want to. Sometimes I feel like many pieces of my life were hard and I barely made it out alive. Now, I realize everyone has hard stuff..what I'm thinking is that we must continue to pursue the goals or mission of our individual lives.
A dear very smart friend told me that when we feel the Best in our lives...when we're in that special place, special time, special someone (pick one, doesn't have to coincide) and we think "Ohhhhhh this is a vvvvery good feeling...hope I get to visit this again soon" ....that is the way God sees us all the time...He has in mind and heart that love, that Truth (what?!) about us and toward us every day...every moment. Can it be? So the very best I can ever feel is the Truth of me...I really am that..Hard to swallow. Life's darts and arrows and mishaps and lies get so far into us that it takes years of effort to get rid of them...or even to a manageable place.
I think that's why they call it Faith. This morning I will try again. Lord help my unbelief.
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